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fuck i am tired,i could not give a shit if the world ended this second.i have a feeling i am slightly bi polar but dealing with it is what has to be done.i have already had 2 friends that were on behavioural modifiers,i think both were effexor,a derivitive of prozac and fuck me,i see that shit and what it does do you,you will be planting me before i take drugs to feel more stable.part of this tired feeling most likely stems from the fact i have not had sex in a million years,being touched is such a cornerstone of our existence.regardless of how tough and strong some of like to appear,lack of intimacy begins to wear hard.but again that has to be dealt with also.the world is full of shit and we are lucky enough to be in the oasis in the middle of that shit.so when i feel tired and hate life,i keep it to myself and take it out on no one,i sit quitely in th corner like i am doing now and i know that there are lots of people with way bigger problems so mine are pretty small and i deal with it.